Been studying for exams, at least, trying to. Been listening to music, songs about sex and getting laid and partying with booze and sippin' on 'petron' and stuff, are fading away in this phase of my life. of course, i do download them just so i won't be outdated, like listening to Stuttering in May, and just so Gene would shut the hell up whenever i listen to songs he'd listened to a few decades ago. yeah. just kidding. haha.
i've always been interested in music, and i don't mean, hey let's get a band and write emo love songs just because they are cool. i listen to them, try to get into it, what's it talking about, why they wrote it, who sang them, yet, don't try to be like them just because i'd like to take up a persona. simply, i don't want to end up walking around like a rocker, an emo, or what malaysian and many other asian kids do best - the hip hop star with a fucking cap tilted sideways, pulled down just so it covers my ears.
if ever i were to write a song, i'd like to sing about what's happening around me, and sing it dressed like how i normally would. i've ever been fantasizing about the idea of a singer, a rapper, a dancer or anything, dressed with a tee shirt, polo or something, tucked in, jeans, sneakers, and sing. no point for big shirts, big caps, few grills and few blings. if i were to sing, i'd be dressed like what i wrote above, few a few earrings, exactly like how i would dress up when i go out. or, wear a dress shirt, black one, black pants, leather shoes, black, just because i think black is cool. and sophisticated. definitely not a wannabe.
yeah i'd do that. and be myself when i listen to music, sing to express, not sing just because i'd like those bitches to suck my cock or something. not because i'd like to form a boy band and rock around just so those bitches would climb to the stage and shake their titties at me. yeah, titties. i don't even call them boobs because they are probably high school chicks, yeah only impressionable highschoolers would do that. ladies, would keep it tucked in, perhaps flaunt a little with a low cut but that's about it.
and i've been thinking about the music industry in malaysia. how many great songs are not exposed to the children. how they are told to listen to what's good for them, told to watch movies that are good for them, told them to behave they way they should. as a result, yeah we get a lot of teenagers running away and killing themselves in the world, not too sure about malaysia because they probably wouldn't release such records simply because the officials would like everyone to believe we're a good country. yeah fuck that. we honestly need more exposure when it comes to music, how every piece of them bring a message, every song is an entity, how a song has its individual characteristics if it's transformed into a person.
nothing, nothing teaches us better about life better than music. books don't tell us much about life, only teach us what needs to be done just so we'll end up having big houses and drive fancy cars and shit. lyrics are written from the depth of our minds, because we have something to tell, we have a story to share. if only books could do that. of course, i meant the books we get in high school or university. definitely not talking about a biography or fiction, non-fiction, etc.
sadly, i believe the music industry is currenly polluted with shit tunes that make us dance like freaks, shit lyrics that encourage us to get laid. all that bullshit. whatever happened to the good old rap and stuff. rap is dead, apparently. sex and drugs and dining at the Y rules, just because sex sells. yet these kinda songs are being played in malaysia, just because it sells. it's appropriate for our children, they should listen to these, just because we'll get a lot of money if we play it. yeah, we should, because it makes us money. we should privatise water utility in the third world, just because it 'creates' jobs for the poor and so we could make more money when they pay taxes. make us money = 'good' for the children.
at this phase i'm going through right now, i've decided to stop listening to alternative rock and songs about sex for a moment, i'm gonna stop Metric, Yeah Yeah Yeahs, all that Ian Van Dahl, Blank & Jones, ABV stuff, and those Bow Wow stuff, those Chris Brown leg move dance-so-that-chick-would-suck-my-dick.
in fact, i'm already listening to Nas, Quest, Wu Tang, and Run DMC. just so i'll understand what happened during that era, and try to grasp the energy they had when they wrote the lyrics, try to picture how they were feeling when they wrote it, what made them do it. and perhaps after that i'll try on Lynyrd Skynrd and Janis Joplin and stuff. try to understand what their songs are about, what made them to stand among the best. i've had it with my attitude of taking music for granted, only listening to songs that are played right now, without even bothering about the predecessors. i do not deserve the rights to call myself a music enthusiast if i never knew them, and i have no rights to pursue music as one of the prospects in my future if i don't even know them right now.
and sex and shit are destroying songs like this, making us turn to the next song just because there's not a good beat to it. lyrics always win us over, always. lyrics are the character of a person, beats and tunes and rhythm are just eye candies.